Stalking the guy you like does not help the situation as my good friend told me. It might even make the shit your dealing with even harder. Because when shit hits the fan it gets everywhere, and sadly that has happend.
Being the gay Asian kid here and Plaid the football jock we where just friends in until I had feelings for him. However the problem is that when drama is born, school idiots make it 1000X worse then it has to be. So for example, if a chick gets a paper cut. Then the next day it goes to "Shit, did you hear man,a bitch got cut!!!". Yeah talk about stupid drama shit.
But being only the mild bitch that I am, I just feel vary bad for Plaid. All I want is to take back the last 5 days of school and shred it all apart. His fuckface friends are awful to him and it's sad to see him isolate himself.
The problem was also that I'm so stupid. He was probably close to me because I was not one of his fuckface friends, rather I was pretty nice and caring about him. So that's why he was so comfortable with me. It's just so sad to know that I was emotionaly blind.
I mean as cool and awesome of a guy he is, I kinda wish we never talked. Drama is emotional and just so draining on the human soul. And it's sad to see that this shit is being manipulated by others that don't even know shit about what really happend between us. But it's worse to see him isolated.
So I think it starts with us, if I just cut myself off from the world for these next few weeks it might help a lot. I already deleted my twitter app to start with some help. And I just got some good movies to watch with ice cream in the freezer. So I might get fat for this week, but it will be worth it, if it helps out Plaid in the end. But more importantly it's me time with understanding who I am and also finding inner peace. So bring on that mother fucker ice cream.
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