What Goes on in my Mind...

   I'm like your average everyday person, I think about random shit that happens to wonder in my mind. But my problome is that I think of Plaid just a little too much. And for a gay Asian boy with nothing much to do, and with school ending today I just don't know why I'm still thinking about him. 

   I feel like I should be thinking of summer and planning to doing shit with my friends. But I feel like this strage feeling of regret and sadness. I told Plaid, the cute football jock that I liked him about two weeks ago, but I wish I never did. He was an asshole to me the whole time after I told him I liked him, and he would cut me off of every social media outlet there ever was. 

   We would still be texting for hours everynight, and he would still send me funny selfies of him to me. He still be super flirty and cute with his flirtynesss. And that we could have also been pretty awesome BFFs and like hanged out during summer too. I just wished I never told him that I liked him. 

   But with all of that said, I still don't know why I exactly like him. Maybe I'm a desperate little fuck that just want a boyfriend. Or many that I  liked him for who he really was, an overall cool guy. In a way I just think moving on is a little hard, as the little awkward kid that I have no fucking clue what to do of how to feel. 

   All I know is this, that summer is around the corner, and that I can drive soon. So, shopping expeditions, and girl time are both in my summer plans. And probably by the time summer ends I won't even know who Plaid is...unless we like hang out over the summer. But God, that would be a fucking miracle.