The Past...

Liking people is a natural human action to do. Unless your a pice of shit that has no feelings, and has no heart that cared for other people. Yet, sadly there are those people in this world. It's like shopping online. It looks amazing on  the model. But shit when you get that fucker home it's just pure shit. However the difference is that online shopping is so much fun and in reality liking a crush is different. 

It's painful when the one you like does not have the same feelings for you. However it's worst when they give you no awnser to why. And that's Plaid right there he's the kinda person that would do such an evil action. Instead what he does is hides from the shit. 

So why did I like this kid. This kid was my first real crush and as the gay kid that I am I thought he was cute. But the way I met him was so strange we only started talking for some random reason  in January. And it was from that first night of texting him I fell hard and he also sent me a random selfie of himself. 

I thought he was funny and nice. He also was pretty cool as a person with awesome looks. I thought this was a kid I kinda liked. However, I had to go to Vietnam for two weeks.

 So I was in Vietnam for those 14 days and let's say it was so much fun, but only when I was texting him for three hours every day and when I was tanning. And that was a blast. Three hours every night for the past two weeks I was there. 

Our topics were so funny. They go from shopping all the way to sex, with a quick topic change. I did not know it then, but he was already flirting with me. It was then the selfies started to come in. He would send me random selfies with no context to the situation at all. I won't lie they were cute and he looked so hot in all of them. And he would always have to put a filter over them...why the filter for such a hot stud muffin I don't know. 

I however just miss those days. I mean we could have been friends still and all of this would never happen. The problem I feel  is we need to have a talk to sort out our feelings and that won't happen. I know that there is unfinished business. But I don't know how the fuck that is going to happen, but it will one day. Just hope, because as people that's all we can do somedays just hope under a fig tree.